You try and try to make a change, but sometimes the old habits come back to bite you in the butt. It's okay though - sometimes you need the reminder to get you back on track. You learn all about how to manage time in business school but more often than not you get so caught up in your to-do lists that you are just jumping from one task to the other with a laser-focus intent of checking things off and getting things done. But it is binding in some way - to go through a day solely based on this list of things - would it kill to not do one or many of them? So as my last mini approached, I thought, why not take a break from all that and just let my memory do the job - bad call! I'm back to scribbling out everything that needs to get done in my small little red book.
I couldn't run outside today (and I HATE running on the treadmill) because of the weather (yea I know it is a lame excuse - but it was snow-hailing and 32 degrees today so I can take a break) so I swam instead. The habit thing applies there too - I have a habit of overthinking things in the water (because I am trying not to drown!) and I realized that I am at my best when I am not thinking at all. My first two laps were just on pure adrenaline of me rushing to get into the water and trying to make the most of the empty lane. Later on, I started thinking about my technique (or lack thereof) and how my breathing worked (or didn't rather) and add fatigue to that, and everything went haywire. Let's just say learning how to swim at this age (really - I'm not that old, but people usually learn to swim as toddlers!) is painfully slow.
We often revert back to old habits when we aren't on "top of our game" or tired or just don't care enough. While taking a break is important, I have realized that unlearning is just ridiculously hard and needs a lot of patience. I also experienced this when I was training under a new dance teacher - I had to become aware of my body all over again.
Bottom Line: Be patient when you are un-learning something. It's okay to lapse - key is to keep at it!
I couldn't run outside today (and I HATE running on the treadmill) because of the weather (yea I know it is a lame excuse - but it was snow-hailing and 32 degrees today so I can take a break) so I swam instead. The habit thing applies there too - I have a habit of overthinking things in the water (because I am trying not to drown!) and I realized that I am at my best when I am not thinking at all. My first two laps were just on pure adrenaline of me rushing to get into the water and trying to make the most of the empty lane. Later on, I started thinking about my technique (or lack thereof) and how my breathing worked (or didn't rather) and add fatigue to that, and everything went haywire. Let's just say learning how to swim at this age (really - I'm not that old, but people usually learn to swim as toddlers!) is painfully slow.
We often revert back to old habits when we aren't on "top of our game" or tired or just don't care enough. While taking a break is important, I have realized that unlearning is just ridiculously hard and needs a lot of patience. I also experienced this when I was training under a new dance teacher - I had to become aware of my body all over again.
Bottom Line: Be patient when you are un-learning something. It's okay to lapse - key is to keep at it!
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